r/schizoaffective • u/sekh60 bipolar subtype • Nov 29 '14
Check-In Saturday (November 29, 2014)
Check-in Saturday is a weekly topic encouraging community members to check in with how they are doing in a judgment free environment.
Anyone can start a Check-in Saturday, just please put the date in the title and try to include a link to the previous week's thread.
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u/8NoaH9 GOLD GRAND PRIZE WINNER BEST OF 2015! Nov 30 '14
I haven't been sleeping. Been painting a lot, spending lots of money, and started having melt downs again. I am so confused by all this. My thoughts go altogether at times. It's not fun but I am not happy. So think it's mixed.
Was taken to the ER for my heart Tuesday. It was hurting really bad. Doing stuff around my heart monitor was interesting but they ran all the test and my EKG came back as tachycardia. My heart medicine was not working. Great. They gave me pain medicine and told me to follow up with my doctor.
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u/sekh60 bipolar subtype Dec 01 '14
big hugs I hope the pain medication is helping some. Let us know if you need someone to talk to.
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u/8NoaH9 GOLD GRAND PRIZE WINNER BEST OF 2015! Dec 01 '14
Thanks.... My chest is doing better. Got a hold of my PCP and he increased my heart medicine until I see my cardiologist. Still some pain at times but nothing like before. God that was terrible! My mind is still kind of mixed up. I am painting a lot to curb it. To get it out but it's like I can't paint enough or there's so much jumbled up I can't decide what to paint.
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u/koutavi depressive subtype Nov 30 '14
About the same. My grandmother is home and that's been awful. It feels like it's been a month of crap already, not just a week. I spent three days straight (including my birthday) being verbally/emotionally abused and changing her diapers. The stress (?) seems to have overridden my bcp and brought on an early period which has me completely exhausted. Still haven't seen my shrink, aiming for next Sunday. Also aiming for spending way less time caretaking this week.
Went out with my friends yesterday and it was amazing... I felt like a person, not a punching bag. I've still been having a hard time summoning the energy/motivation and getting past the anxiety to get out lately, be it for work or fun, but once I do it's so much better. The positive symptoms are easier to ignore. The negative ones... still suck but I'll keep trying.
I hope all you guys are doing alright. <3
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u/sekh60 bipolar subtype Dec 01 '14
hugs Happy belated birthday! Sorry you spent it getting abused :( Do you have any siblings or family members that can help with looking after her? Or maybe a nurse can come by now and then?
I hope you can see your psychiatrist soon and I'm glad you were able to get out.
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u/koutavi depressive subtype Dec 01 '14
It's just me and my mother and we can't afford to hire help. :( At this point I'm not sure what's going to happen. My friend is coming by tomorrow so we can both go to work... it's really stressful living one day at a time, heh.
Thanks for the birthday wishes, and again for all you do to support this community.
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u/sekh60 bipolar subtype Nov 29 '14
Just for some more visibility, please check out /r/schizoaffective/comments/2nqbg2/mumblemurmur_server/
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u/koutavi depressive subtype Nov 30 '14
I'd be interested in this, though I don't think I'd be able to speak. The chat feature is good... a real-time support meeting kind of thing is appealing, I've been unable to find anything like that IRL that doesn't require you to be part of their inpatient/outpatient program. No sza anonymous, alas.
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