r/FormulaFeeders • u/jeanybean11 • 6h ago
Support Needed / Guilt Related 🧸 Switching due to chronic clogs and mastitis
I would love to hear from anyone, but specially those who switched to formula because of maternal health reasons.
So breastfeeding has been rough from the start, but we have powered through a lot of pain and hardship to try and make it work. I’m almost 12 weeks pp now and one thing we haven’t been able to solve is chronic clogs that have ended in mastitis.
Everyday I am fighting at least two clogs, sometimes more. They are painful, and more than that, it makes every feed stressful. Which breast do I feed him on (LO only takes one at a time) in hopes that he clears the clog? Every feed feels like do or die. Feeding is often painful because of the clogs too. I dread him waking up from a nap and needing to feed.
The absolute worst part has been my inability to hold or carry him. Because of the pain and risk of clogs, I can’t contact nap or babywear. I want to hold my baby without pain. I feel like I have already missed out on so much. I look at all the photos and videos we have already of mostly my husband and him. I want to be close to my baby without pain.
I really wanted to breastfeed till at least 6 months, and I don’t want to give up. I so badly want to make this work… but I’m incredibly depressed. I feel like breastfeeding has ruined this first 3 months together. I cry every night. I’m miserable. But at the same time, I struggle with the idea of switching. I wanted to do with for the health benefits for him AND me.
Idk… just looking to hear from others who might have had similar experiences.
EDIT: I should have included that I’ve worked with my OB and a LC extensively to work through this and the consensus is that I’m just prone to inflammation and therefore clogs. We’ve tried it all.