Robbed by postpartum

[u/bellski05]

Anyone else feel like the haze/fog of postpartum PLUS coming home with a tiny worm of a human robbed you of some of the last baby months with your older half of the 2u2? I have my phone on the rotating wallpaper of my kids/husband/cats lol and I’m getting pics from when my second was NB~3mos and my oldest was like 15-18mos and at the time she felt soooo big and I was so overwhelmed and idk I just felt like she was a giant ass toddler. But now she’s approaching 2years old and I’m not in the thick of it as much with the little one and I’m seeing these pics and I feel like I completely missed those months with her. I was with her but I didn’t SEE her and I’m so sad about it 😭 she was just a tiny baby and I made her grow up so fast

[u/size9shoe]

I don’t remember SO MUCH. Mine are now 14 months and almost three and really starting to have that sweet sibling relationship that so many people rave about, but I could not in good conscience encourage others to have kids this close in age. I sincerely hope I can say it was worth it one day, but right now I feel like I shortchanged both kids and myself so much.

[u/bellski05 → u/size9shoe]

YES. And I feel like I’m only starting to see the beginning of it. I know a year from now I’m going to wonder where all the time went with the baby. I know my post is about big sis, but somehow I spend all day giving her attention and caring for the baby’s basic needs and that ends up being nothing for either of them?! I know it’s not nothing, but even with all the focus on the toddler it’s not enough for someone discovering the world! And the baby, I just have so much guilt because her sister had SO MUCH more from me at this age 😭 and I know she won’t remember being left on the floor while I run her sister to the potty for the 10000000th time today, but I hate that her view most of the day is just the room she’s in and not interaction with me like her sister had.

[u/54317a → u/bellski05]

all of this 😭