I just finished Ch53 of ZA8, where Tory said Darcy “abandoned” her and I’m just like girl what?????? Can you pull your head out of your own ass for half a second please?
I feel for her. I really do. Her life has been wildly difficult, but so has Darcy’s and Darcy isn’t a selfish b*tch because of it. Sorry not sorry…
An earlier example is everything that happened with Darius, she refused to take any blame for how the situation unfolded until Darcy called her out. Gabriel had given her the opportunity to look at her own actions by telling her plainly that he knew how she’d react to him pointing out her part in her and Darius’ failed relationship, and instead of using that as an opportunity to put her guard down and truly take a hard look at herself, she reacted exactly as Gabriel said she would. Having that foresight and doing nothing with it is incredibly embarrassing for her, but given this was fairly early in the series, I could look past it under the assumption she’d, y’know, learn from her mistakes.
Now, many books later, Tory has grown approximately 0%. She knows what it’s like to have an Elysian mate since she and Darius technically are mates as well, yet refuses to acknowledge that she’d act in the same way Darcy is if she herself was in a mirrored situation with Darius. Darcy isn’t capable of being around Tory without the shadow beast taking over, Tory experiences this firsthand, she’s been told why Darcy can’t come back with her, and Tory’s conclusion is that Darcy fucking abandoned her? WHAT? She doesn’t even entertain for a moment that her sister is in a horrific situation and needs to stay away for her sake, she doesn’t even have a slim desire for Darcy to remain present for her own Elysian mate and see the benefit of that. She simply victimizes herself and decides she has been abandoned.
Like, yes, sure, be sad! I’m not saying she can’t feel hurt, but this girl is so fucking allergic to her own sadness and pain that instead of feeling the complexity and nuances of her emotions, she villainizes people. She’s brave in many ways but when it comes to herself, she’s a complete coward and that causes her to constantly stand in her own way.
I guess I’m just disappointed that 8+ books into this series and Tory, at best, hasn’t had any emotional growth, and at worst, maybe even regressed emotionally. I really hope that by the end of book 9 she actually learns from past experiences and grows because jesus christ her lack of growth is making her incredibly insufferable.