it literally hurts to move around yet at the same time I feel like a robot or something or like my body doesn’t belong to me
my dad thinks I’ve got an eating disorder because I don’t like eating anymore but it’s not deliberate, it’s just because food tastes like crap
and I feel really empty inside, like there’s a massive void
I still talk to people like friends and family but I’ve got no sense of attachment to them, my emotions seem to have gone on holiday and I keep getting lost in my head
I’m pretty sure my dad hates me and he wants to kick me out of the house because I’m so useless and I don’t do anything around the house yet I’m such an expensive child and I’m hard to take care of
and even though I’m on some new meds there’s still that one voice in my head that won’t shut up and sometimes when I feel like crap and he’s the only one who wants to talk to me and if I ignore him he starts screaming at me and pointing out every reason why I’ve got no real friends left and all I have is him so I have to give in one way or another
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u/BabyImAFreakOfNature Aug 08 '15
it literally hurts to move around yet at the same time I feel like a robot or something or like my body doesn’t belong to me my dad thinks I’ve got an eating disorder because I don’t like eating anymore but it’s not deliberate, it’s just because food tastes like crap and I feel really empty inside, like there’s a massive void I still talk to people like friends and family but I’ve got no sense of attachment to them, my emotions seem to have gone on holiday and I keep getting lost in my head
I’m pretty sure my dad hates me and he wants to kick me out of the house because I’m so useless and I don’t do anything around the house yet I’m such an expensive child and I’m hard to take care of and even though I’m on some new meds there’s still that one voice in my head that won’t shut up and sometimes when I feel like crap and he’s the only one who wants to talk to me and if I ignore him he starts screaming at me and pointing out every reason why I’ve got no real friends left and all I have is him so I have to give in one way or another