r/schizoaffective • u/sekh60 bipolar subtype • Jul 11 '15

Check in Saturday (11th July, 2015)

Check-in Saturday is a weekly topic encouraging community members to check in with how they are doing in a judgment free environment. Anyone can start a Check-in Saturday, just please put the date in the title and try to include a link to the previous week's thread.

Last week's thread.

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u/i_am_hathor Jul 12 '15

This was a weird week for me. Lots of synchronicities. Been shifting timelines again, having personal mandela effects.

My insurance decided it doesn't want to cover abilify so I'm without anti-psychotics. Not sure how that will play out. This happened on the same day that I discovered this "shades of awakening" summit thing so it feels like a higher power nudging me. To see if maybe I really need to be on that stuff or not? On top of that just noticing things shifting around. Like my annoying neighbor just up and moving all of the sudden.

Also finally met a new local friend, who has aspergers so he understands the mental health system stuff.

Still waiting on my apartment complex to fix things. I had to clean out the whole kitchen like I was moving, to get the bug guy to spray everywhere so I can get rid of these damn roaches. The light went out in my kitchen, and since it's one of those long florescent ones I don't have a way to replace it. Still don't have my new dishwasher yet either. Plus they have to fix this thing on my ceiling in order for me to pass the section 8 inspection.

So I guess on Monday I have the stress of calling my pdoc to try to sort out meds, and dealing with my apartment manager to sort out the issues...next week I also have to figure out the food stamp paperwork stuff.

Also my case manager was supposed to come by to check on me and give me a new bus pass, so it seems like she's not getting my email or something.

I'm feeling pretty good emotionally, considering, but I've been having nightmares again and I feel like there is a bit too much stress at the moment.

Sometimes when I get tired I have suicidal thoughts creeping up again and it's hard to convince myself to take the trazodone and just sleep it off.

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u/sekh60 bipolar subtype Jul 14 '15

Ugh, that sucks that insurance isn't covering your anti-psychotics. Is there any way to appeal the decision?

Gratz on the new friend. It's nice having people around who understand the mental health system. I'm lucky that a lot of my friends have had experience (erm, that doesn't sound totally right, I'd rather they didn't have any mental health concerns at all, but given that they do, I'm glad to know them).

I really hope they get moving on fixing the apartment. Is there a tenant board you can complain to?

How did the call to your pdoc go?

hugs

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u/i_am_hathor Jul 14 '15

I think I got it situated, but after being off abilify for a while and suffering withdrawals it's hard for me to want to go back on them again. It feels like a drug addiction dependency. I'm not entirely convinced that I need to be taking this stuff every day.

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u/sekh60 bipolar subtype Jul 15 '15

I understand. hugs