r/schizoaffective • u/sekh60 bipolar subtype • Mar 21 '15

Check-in Saturday (March 21, 2015)

Check-in Saturday is a weekly topic encouraging community members to check in with how they are doing in a judgment free environment. Anyone can start a Check-in Saturday, just please put the date in the title and try to include a link to the previous week's thread.

Previous week's check-in

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u/fidel1ty depressive subtype Mar 21 '15

Finally came forward to my psychiatrist about my suicidal ideation. Had to give up my stash of diazepam I was planning to OD on. Sucks - that was my back up plan for when everything inevitably went wrong.

Slowly trading in some of my olanzapine (25mg) for more aripiprazole (25mg)

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u/8NoaH9 GOLD GRAND PRIZE WINNER BEST OF 2015! Mar 22 '15

I am glad you came forward to your shrink and gave up your stash. I know how hard that is. There is a finality to suicide that I don't think people way in until is too late and they can no longer wake up or realize it. I think the only ones that realize it are those who survive it. I am a survivor and I almost didn't wake up. Now who's too say my mental illness won't act up again and I hit that low but it will always be in the back of my mind. So just know there is a finality to it. I hope to hear you are doing better soon.

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u/koutavi depressive subtype Mar 22 '15

Good for you. As someone who wasn't strong enough to do that, it's so much better to be honest with your doctor.

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u/sekh60 bipolar subtype Mar 24 '15

big hugs I'm glad you brought it up with your psychiatrist. We want you to stay around.