r/schizoaffective • u/sekh60 bipolar subtype • Sep 06 '14
Check-In Saturday (September 6, 2014)
Check-in Saturday is a weekly topic encouraging community members to check in with how they are doing in a judgment free environment.
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u/schizodepressive bipolar subtype Sep 07 '14
As predicted in my last update I was in the hospital this week. I did everything in my power to get out because I didn't trust the doctor. I felt like he was changing my meds just to break me. I think I need to go back in. I'm going to tell my psychiatrist that I'll go back as long as I can get a different doctor.
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u/thefaith1029 Mod Sep 09 '14
Things have been rough. My pain doctor completely quit treating me. Now I'm faced with detoxing off the pain medications and withdrawals don't scare me...
... what scares me is the pain I'll have to endure/go through.
Right now my doctors are being a bunch of self-entitled jackasses.
With that off my chest I did something strange. I don't really know how it happened but in 36hrs I took a total of 140mg of Oxycodone so now my parents don't trust me with my pain medicine script because something definitely happened psychiatrically as I only recall taking 2 extra doses of medication during that time but a total of twenty-eight 5mg tablets are missing from the bottle.
Oh. And apparently I threatened suicide.
So there's that. I don't have much reallocation of it all. I ended up in the hospital this past Sunday because the pain was way, way, way out of control but I never admitted to overtaking my prescription to my doctors. I'm not sure I even took that many. Something strange happened but I have no memory so, I don't know.
I think when I found out my pain doctor would no longer be my doctor it triggered a panic response and I went to that schizoaffective place and just overdid it on my medication because I was terrified and couldn't handle the thought that the rest of my life would be spent in pain.
sigh I don't know now. I need a solution to this pain problem and no one has any alternatives except that I need to be off the narcotics.
It's fucking frustrating.
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u/xxpepperbombxx Sep 11 '14
What kind of pain are you dealing with? I also have fibromyalgia.
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u/thefaith1029 Mod Sep 11 '14
Ugh yah I know about Fibro because my mom has it and I have joint/bone pain too... so it is very irritating. In any case I have Sphincter of Oddi Dsyfunction a muscle by my pancreas in my bile duct spasms a lot and sometimes causes pancreatitis. The feeding tube is in place to bypass the stomach thus causing less bile flow through the duct and less likelihood of pancreatitis. I still get painful spasms though and a burning sensation rocks my upper abdomen like a searing band that knocks the wind out of you.
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u/xxpepperbombxx Sep 11 '14
I'm so sorry. I know how stressful chronic pain is and it can make you feel more depressed. I try to get lost in tv and let the hours pass until I can go to sleep again. Try to rest. :(
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u/xxpepperbombxx Sep 09 '14
I had a bad episode at the pharmacy trying to get my antipsychotics filled. I had been off of them a week and two super center walmarts didnt have my meds in stock. They gave me the run around and I ended up flipping out royally. :/
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u/sekh60 bipolar subtype Sep 11 '14
:( hugs Any updates on getting them filled?
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u/xxpepperbombxx Sep 11 '14
Yeah.
What happened was that I had been off them a whole week because my pharmacy sucks at having my script ready. I called my pills in they said they would be ready. Then I got there and they had my wait two hours to be told to drive to another pharmacy myself. THEN..that pharmacy said they couldn't fill it and that they shouldn't have told me that.
In the end lots of crying. My husband had to fix things. And now I have eighty of my pills! :)
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u/sekh60 bipolar subtype Sep 11 '14
:) Glad your husband was able to fix things, and that you're stocked up.
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