RAGE AND MISSING THINGS/ FINDING ITEMS

[u/Ok-Resolve5577]

for context i have been diagnosed with schizoaffective bipolar type 2 in the past. i hope it has some relevance here.

what is it with rage attacks and having adhd?

i have a few examples that may or may not be related to adhd

one time i couldnt find something in my room that i was trying to use. it was nail clippers. when i couldnt find them i told myself in my mind that someone like my dad went in my room and took them in order to try to sabotage me. i was coming up with scenarios in my head of him smirking about how i couldnt find it, and imagining him enjoying my distress at not being able to find it.

only 10 seconds later i found it and my tortured nervous system quickly cooled off. why does my nervous system jump from 0-100 in a flash second imagining someone was sabotaging me only to find out it was me who misplaced the object? this happens frequently and my paranoia / suspicioins about being plotted against melt completely on my now-cooled off nervous system. i immediately feel level headed after finding the lost object. could this be trauma or a symptom of possible bpd?

[u/Weary_Lion_5811]

Had this alot would lose my keys or wallets in my apartment and become convinced someone must have come in a stole my keys and wallet. only for me to realize I had placed them somwhere and forgot. I was once convinced the maintance men came in and tool all my silverware even though i had actually thrown a lot of it away in a manic trip a year ago.

more seriously Ive raged at people becoming convinced they secretly hate me and are just torturing me, Ive really ruined relationship because of that, and some people are scared o me because of that. I'm so thankful Im on antipsychotics now relationships now feel normal, and with my financial situation stablized I find Im alot less emotionally dysregulated.

I strongly suggest getting on a antipsychotic, please do it for yourself and others around you.