r/raisedbynarcissists • u/Dark-sapiosexual • 1d ago

[Question] People with toxic mothers who is controlling, self-absorbed and paranoid, how did you feel when she died?

Sometimes I (29F) feel like I would get freedom because I despise her a lot currently, but at the same time, I feel like it might make me sad and guilty for not trying to understand her better when she goes. Not sure if it's a trauma bond but if anyone has experienced such, I want to hear your opinions.

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u/WarningPlus8895 1d ago

my nmom just died and I feel sad and guilty. She wasn't the best mother and she was abusive but the way she died was horrid. She suffered multiple head injuries from her ndad and nsister. (my lesbian aunt, who's her major abuser) I think it's normal to feel sad even when nparents die, it depends on each person tho, but idk if it's the trauma bond for me.