Am I wrong for this?

[u/Mysterious_Crab_511]

So I’ve recently come out as trans to my husband who was very accepting of my decision. However I will not say anything to my command because for starters I love the Army, it’s basically in my nature since I’ve done so well for the last five years and would love to continue serving. I’ve accepted the fact I won’t be able to take T, luckily I have a deeper voice for a female so I can naturally feel myself even in front of my command and soldiers. I know I won’t be able to get a double mastectomy unless I would find like a lump or have family that has had breast cancer in the past. I know I won’t be able to transition at least until I decide to get out which again is fine though I lowkey hate it. The only thing I can do to truly feel like myself is grow out my leg hair and such because there’s nothing in the regs that state I have to shave them and wear either a chest binder or use trans tape to flatten my chest. Again no one can say anything since they won’t see it obviously and there’s nothing in the regs. I’m just curious if I’m wrong for it? I’m sure my closest friends in the Army would question me a bit although they have seen me in men’s clothes practically since they’ve met me when we hang out outside of work. I don’t know, I guess I’m just looking for some guidance on this.

[u/Sea-Resident2682]

Ok this may be poor advice ngl, usually ur not really drug tested for hormones, test is a little different since its like "wow this person has more than average, theyre either having a heath issue which we won't fix OR theyre trying to use steriods without actually using steroids" you could probably get away with "micro dosing" a lot of people who are genderfluid/non binary do it for hormones. Would make ur skin more rough, a bit more oily as well, muscle gain would be incredibly different after a few months, you'd start to see more of a sculpture especially on the leg side since fat will be burning considerably faster, as for upper ofc ur tri's bi's etc are going to be the shit.

[u/Mysterious_Crab_511 → u/Sea-Resident2682]

I thought about that too but I wouldn’t know the first thing about getting a prescription for it without having to see a physician especially since I’m stationed outside US.

[u/DAB0502 → u/Mysterious_Crab_511]

The Army can access your medical records even if you aren't using a military doctor or the Tricare. If you are serious about staying in this is bad advice. This would have worked in the past but definitely not today.

[u/Dragon-Martin → u/Sea-Resident2682]

second this. they won't check. If they did, they will not care. and even if they did mysteriously decide to care, there is a wide range that is medically considered female range. If you're within that (even at the very top) they will not bat an eye. At least for now, there's a certain invisibility for adding T to your system, it's not like you're doing crack or weed.

Let's say hypothetically you magically get access and are able to do this. If you want to keep physical changes slow, you're going to do a fraction of the dose that trans men do. (I was actually on 1/4 dose for a bit and my numbers still tested high-cis female range, although that was gel, which is harder to get via hypothetical magic). You can also space it out, like do it every 10 days or every other week (assuming your magically obtained hrt was injection based). 1mL syringes.

OP you have options! Who knows, if you're not in the US it might be easier to obtain diy. Good luck.