Some how I had never considered transbians to be a possibility until this weekend, I've been in a state of like overwhelming euphoria the past several days now realizing you all are out here and that I will actually have a community.
I'm not sexually or romantically attracted to cis men in any way, so my brain was like "Well, you're definitely not gay". A lot of my past experiences of transgender women were centered in the gay male community / drag culture and it never felt completely right.
The best I could come up with was I was straight, but just really liked my feminine side and felt more comfortable with it internally.
I turned 34 a month ago and something has just really clicked that I need to more fully embrace my femininity in all aspects of life and begin to match my outward appearance with how I felt internally. I first got hair highlights for the first time in my life, then in pretty quick succession, started exploring make up, picking out clothes, getting my nails done, and then experienced San Francisco's queer nightlife (I'm lucky enough to live close) - Transbians ARE a thing in real life, and it makes me so happy.
People actually liked me, for me, they saw and liked my full self for the first time in my life. A new chapter has started. 🌈 💕