r/JewishKabbalah • u/HungryDepth5918 • Apr 17 '26
Kabbalah and childhood thoughts
Know very little about Kabbalah but I was a philosophically and logically minded kid and intuited negative theology and apophasis as a child. I was fascinated by the logic of the infinite and all the paradoxes therein. So it was always in my mind that infinity must contract for things to exist. And that there is that beyond space-time. And also have this sense of an expanse of featureless darkness which isn’t really dark like the darkness we see but like where thought forms- featureless but with potentiality. i wasn’t a very religious Jew in my twenties or mid thirties. After Oct. 7 that changed- and now I’ve been reading these medieval rabbis to make up for a pretty spotty Reform education. But also got curious as to what Kabbalah actually is broad brushstrokes wise and the concepts of Ein Sof and Tzimtzum (sp?) and Bittul feel very familiar to me. I’m wondering if my childhood notions line up with this and now Im wondering if this has always been a fascination for me because I am Jewish? Maybe because we mention the infinite in so many prayers maybe my thoughts drifted off on the idea? Also please tell me if what I am saying is complete nonsense since theres a high likelihood I haven’t understood what I am reading.